Decorating is on Hold

I have been up since 5:22 this morning and as I roamed around the apartment, looking at the piles of stuff scattered on every flat surface, the unvacumed carpet, the sink full of dishes, the bare walls, and the many boxes of unpacked crap, I realized that I just do not have any desire to continue to decorate this space.

I'm just not "feeling it".

I just don't care.

My Elle Decor magazine came yesterday and I didn't get that normal excited feeling that I use to get when the new, pretty magazines would show up. I glanced through it and tossed it on the growing pile that sits on top of the dusty coffee table. It will sit there, untouched, until I move it to the pile on the floor in the guest/storage room.

I don't know what the problem is. Part of it is the lack of money to be able to buy anything to decorate with...but the main thing is that this place just doesn't feel like home. I miss my tiny little house out in Oak View. I miss the big yard that took up so much of my time. THAT felt like home. THAT is the place that I wanted to put money into and my heart into to decorate. THAT is the place that I had big plans for. I pictured so many outdoor get togethers at that little house. I pictured finally having enough money saved up to be able to put in a 2nd bathroom. I had the "finished product" in my head and it was lovely and bright and peaceful and fun and my HOME!

Leaving that little house was a mistake and I blame only me. I know I can't get it back and I tell myself everytime I think about it, that it needed way too much work and would require way more dollars to fix than we had access to...but it still doesn't take away the fact that we may never own a home again.

These walls in this apartment will stay bare for the remaining 13 months of our lease. GOD..there was another idiot move on my part....taking that long of a lease. STUPID. STUPID. STUPID. I got suckered in with the newness of the place and the fact that they took large dogs. Hand me the lease! Where do I sign?

I am an IDIOT!

Shoulda found a cheap as hell, peice of shit, ground level, 2 bedroom, that took large dogs, for 6 months some place. (Thank you to California for your insane high cost of living and to all you jackass landlords that refuse to allow dogs! Go ahead and rent to that family with 5 kids. Those kids are gonna fuck your place up faster than you can say Koo Koo for Coco Puffs while my dog would have done nothing but sleep all day)


Oh well.

Fuck it!

Bathroom Storage

So last week I purchased a space saver bathroom cabinet. You know, the kind that stand behind the toilet. Ya...that kind that are SUPPOSED to stand behind the toilet..nice and even! It stood there....just not even...at all!

Our apartment complex was built in 2007, yet for some reason we have already realized that not one single floor is level. As a matter of fact, the floors and the walls are wonky as fuck in this joint!

Do you want your pictures hung up LEVEL or EVEN...pick one..because you won't get both! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyhooooooooooooooooooooooo...the standing bathroom space saver cabinet was a no go and had to be returned. (It took me THREE hours to put it together, thanks to jacked up instructions and screws that refused to go into the pre-drilled holes, and only 5 minutes to tear it apart and cram it back into the box.) THANK YOU CHINA!

Upon its return to the store I lucked onto this hanging wall unit. Bamboo, nice color, and on clearance. It took me 10 minutes to assemble and about 20 minutes to hang on the wall. (I was doing it alone, trying to make it level, and trying to find the screw holes along the back of it, all while standing on the toilet seat.)

It isn't exactly what I wanted but it will do the job. Now my stuff is at eye level instead of tossed underneath the sink in a pile.

Orange is IN

Not sure whose house this is....but I wish I did so I could steal their HUGE (it's even bigger than mine)orange couch when they were out of town!

NOW..I need to go and get some black and white pillows to copy them! I also want them to send their designer my way...for free of course.

Brass is back too. So, I'll be stealing that huge brass chandelier from them as well!

Salt & Pepper

Sometimes it is all about the little things.
In this case, it is all about the little salt & pepper shaker set that makes me smile!
Perfect addition to my kitchen. Who doesn't want to see big boobs on tiny ceramic salt & pepper shakers each morning?
Now...if I could only find the perfect black & white curtains.

Can I Have This Instead?

THIS is my dream house! Tiny. Orange. Perfect!

http://www.apartmenttherapy.com/la/house-tours/stevens-800-square-foot-relocated-beach-cottagehouse-tour-140848

Rugs

SO...we moved in less than a month ago yet I am on my 3rd living room rug. Thank goodness I keep all my receipts and shop only at places that have no hassle return policies!

The first one was PERFECT in color but too small. The second one had reds, yellows and oranges in it but was so close to the same color as the couch that the couch almost disappeared. This one has more brown than orange and I think it is a keeper but I still wish it was a 6 x 9!

With a burnt orange couch it is really hard to find something that has a touch of the same color without being orange overload. The other impossible thing seems to be finding a rug in the right size. Since when did they stop making rugs in 6 x 9? WHEN and WHY?

Now area rugs start at 5 x 7 and then jump straight to 8 x 10 or some slight variation of those two sizes! Rug one was 5 x 7, rug two was 8 x 10 and rug three is 7.3 x 9.3. WTF? I am just a tad OCD....and having to put even just a tiny bit of the rug under the front feet of my couch is enough to almost drive me over the edge. I WANT A 6 x 9 RUG AND I WANT IT NOW.

So if you see this baby in a 6 x 9 , grab it, buy it, and bring it to me. I shall kiss you for it!

CHEERS!

UPDATE: as of 03-29-2011 the rug in this photo is G-O-N-E. Damn thing kept shedding and even though I had it for less than 30 days, it looked like it had been here for years. It was a total fuzz ball mess with strange long fibers sticking up all over the it by the time I took it back to Home Goods. So now we are back to no rug.

Master Bath

It is hard to photograph a bathroom. Too small a space with too big a mirror with no place to stand equals crappy photo shoot!

Oh well...at least the artwork is up. Now I need to find a cabinet for behind the toilet and I may change out the shower curtain for something with a bit of color or bling. This room is getting a bit too beige!

Headboards Cost a Fortune!

They really do cost too damn much and I would like for someone to explain why.

It's not like there is some short supply on headboards. Supply and demand is all screwy in this area and some stores really do seem to think that $400, for a piece of wood to stick behind the head of my bed, is a reasonable price.

Not in my world baby!

Screw you department store prices....I shop on the cheap!

Thank you Target for the bamboo trellis and Lowes for the high gloss spray paint.